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Delivered
I was addicted to crack cocaine
I brought my family tons of pain
I stole, I lied, I cheated
But mostly I was defeated
I stayed away most all the time
Committed all kinds of petty crime
Put on a mask, took a fake name
Played that dark hustle game
Beat up on myself, my family too
Drug demon had hold, didn't know what to do
Everybody in my life shed many tears
Prayed, and mourned for a couple of years
I was lost in a sinister, wicked world
Waiting for death to ensue, and unfurl
All the feelings inside of my soul
Were numb, and hard, and oh so cold
I didn't give a damn anymore
My family changed the lock on the door
They took away my car and my keys
I had hit rock bottom ,fell on my knees
Then I looked up and asked God above
To cleanse me and shower me with His love
That's what He did, and now I'm free
My family is glad in this victory
If there's anyone out there who wants to know
Don't cross the line, it's not worth it to go
Over to that other dark deadly side
I am glad I'm back I hated the ride
by
renee matthews-jackson
10-23-03
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Sweet Heavenly Release
To have been released from such a prison
As I have been is a cause of wonder
And I am truly amazed to survive
To this day against all the many odds
My jailer can no more bind me in chains
That grasping life sucking drug heroin
No longer travels my veins to my brain
Its power is obsolete and finite
Imagine the immense joy that I feel
Waking in the morning not needing it!
My first thought is to drink a cup of tea
The pleasure of that is out of this world
I can travel where I like when I please
No methadone script to go and pick up
The simple treasures in life are my own
And my appreciation knows no bounds!
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The Tunnel
It was dark night and I was very cold
I walked my usual jagged and twisted route
which had become normal but was wrong
Other people walked the other way
illuminated with warm smiles and a
translucent glow surrounding them
I carried on wishing to go with them
but how could I when I was an outcast misfit
ostracised only by my cruel self
Unwilling to admit my vain mistake
of thinking I was enlightened by drugs
Head in the clouds reflected in the gutter
A dark unease stirred inside scaring me
The thought of where I was heading loomed up boldly
I had purchased a ticket to hell with my soul
The needle sucked and demanded more
My blood my heart my mind and my life
Eventually to leave nothing
I turned around and made the first small step
deciding to follow those shining folk to where?
They were entering a strange tunnel
I had nothing to lose so went in
Once inside everything in me changed
A healing sensation entered in
I was in another dimension within
The feeling of drugs was nothing compared to this high
and I knew that I had found my home
Outside the tunnel it was the same
but here was a different universe
Time and eternity were both one
By changing my direction I had changed
and my eyes saw what had always been there
The real world was right there before me
In the tunnel was a space that lived
and I had tapped into the source of life
At the end I saw a blaze of light!
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The Monkey On My Back
I had to throw the monkey off my back
He was always chattering in my ear
Taking my attention off everything
He just couldn't leave off his foul winging
He kept sticking his fingers in my eyes
And making them bleed so I couldn't see
Oh how the monkey craved my attention
Jealous of my every look or movement
Wanting to possess me eternally
He'd cover my ears so I could not hear
I got so used to him there all the time
Now and then I still miss his company
I remind myself that he was not right
So that little critter just had to go
I don't need a destructive fiend like that
I think I have a sneaking suspicion
That the thug did not like me anyway
And so he loved to stick pins in my arms
I'm not going to go to the zoo
And I'll keep away from that daft circus
It's enough just having me on my back
Watch out for the monkey he changes form
And comes in many differing guises
Take care he means you a great deal of harm
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